31 days // bowing out.

Hey friends. Sorry for the silence lately. The last two weeks have honestly been some of the most stressful weeks of my life. If you haven't already heard, on October 4th Justin and I took a four year old foster child into our home. Since then it's been a whirlwind of meetings with the social worker, visitations with his parents, getting him registered for Pre-K school, paperwork, more paperwork, and just trying to figure out how to manage this new season. It's been hard. I'm not by nature a person who gets stressed out easily. I'm not a worrier. Ask anyone who knows me, I'm one of the most laid-back people you'll ever meet. I like change. I like to just go with the flow. But this change has been hard.

So hard.

It's been hard adding another person to our family who's quite hyper and needs a lot of attention.

It's been hard reworking our schedule around a child who is in school from 12:30-3:05 everyday.

It's been hard to take care of and love a child who is the result of some really bad parenting.

It's been hard to have to potty train an almost five year old who hasn't quite got the hang of it yet. And again, the result of someone else's bad parenting.

It's been hard to control my temper when I watch another kid constantly antagonizing my son.

It's been hard to not have much time with my husband lately, who is working his butt off to provide for us while he looks for a full-time job.

It's been hard to not get in the car and drive far, far away.

Alright, that's enough of the negative. Yes, it's been rough but I know it's only for a season. It WILL get better. Even if it takes months or years. It will.

The good news is... the last few days it's gotten a little easier. We're starting to get into a groove and I'm starting to feel a little less stressed. This is a good thing. And a God thing.

So the reason for the post is to tell you that I have decided to bow out of the 31 days series. I really don't want to. But I think I need to. I just can't keep up anymore. And because I'm trying so hard to keep up, it's just adding more stress to my life. The even more disappointing this is I can't even keep up reading so many other 31 days series that I want to read. There are SO many great ones out there.

Sorry I couldn't finish. I know you all understand. Hopefully next year will be different.


Love you all.

4 comments:

  1. No worries! It's a lot of pressure to have to write every single day on just one topic... maybe it'll be easier to write now that you don't have restrictions!

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  2. Praying for you as motherhood is taken to a whole new level of intensity for you. You are wise to choose single-mindedness in the task in front of you. Looking forward to your words when times of quiet pop up! ~Darcy

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  3. Praying for this changing and challenging time in your lifestory friend. Can't wait to meet all of the family next week. :) xo

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